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Hearts, Necks And Other Things That Break [17 Mar 2005|06:14pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Heart-shaped hallways.
Leading the way to nowhere.
You left me stranded here.
Three years from anywhere.
No sign of a way back only fear.
I'll just follow the fragrance of these fake tears.
Your silence says it all.
I know your throat is swelling.
You want to say so much.
But you're afraid you might say what you mean.
I loved you for who you were.
You tried and tried to change me.
It's funny now how you say you're leaving.
Because I'm not the girl I used to be.
Shape someone else now, mold someone new.
Take someone else down, your heart-shaped hallway too.

1 Made me laugh // [Make me Smile]

[14 Mar 2005|11:48pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I don't look that familiar.
No, I don't know you from anywhere.
Would you care to be straight with me?
You just met me for the first time and that's fine.
Why are you so afraid to speak your mind?
Instead you speak the mind of everyone else.
Just think what you could have said.
If you had only thought for yourself.
To bad you were force-fed feelings.
And now you've blocked your own mind out of your head.
If you ever want to think on your own, it's ok.
Go ahead.
Open hands that know not what to hold on to.
Closed minds that hold off on what they know is true.

[Make me Smile]

[11 Mar 2005|11:05pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember.. Cause that's all you can do,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish i would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things i've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess i've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause i'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

[Make me Smile]

[02 Mar 2005|03:40pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Spring bling is coming up. I'll be going with Bethany, Sabrina, and Alexa. I don't know about this..however I do know that I will be getting severely fucked up :) Things always get a little crazy with those three. Oh well.

[Make me Smile]

Flashback [01 Mar 2005|03:34pm]
[ mood | moody ]

you looked over at me...and gave me that smile..I couldn't breathe..I smiled back..but looked away..but your stare was everlasting..I felt your eyes..my mind was anxious..yet my heart yearning..and my judgement didn't know which to act upon..my thoughts just couldn't focus on an action..it was the first time i just didn't know what to do..I hesitated..but then looked back..your smile the same..for just those few seconds I felt like i was floating..like i was untouchable..and it was only you and I in the room..for those few seconds.. you were mine

[Make me Smile]

[28 Feb 2005|11:36pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I can't help it, I can't get you off my mind
She was so wrong
To treat you bad
She didn't know you were the best she'd had
If I were yours
And you were mine
Unlike her, I would never lie
Appreciate you.
There's so much more
I could give you..
If I were your girl
What do I do?
Tension builds when you're in the room
Does she love you?
It seems unkind
Why are you with her, something's not right
I never felt this way inside
It's so hard, so very hard to hide
Cause I can see
That you don't receive
The things you deserve
I'd give you so much more
If I were your girl

[Make me Smile]

[28 Feb 2005|04:46pm]
[ mood | high ]

I went to the mall and the guy who owns this bathing suit store saw me and told me I was beautiful and had an awesome figure..he wants me to model his clothes..$50 an hour.. plus he said I would get bonuses..he gave me $20 just for giving him my information..the bikinis are cute... theyre all the different flags of countries..It's petty cash, but it'll have to do until I'm 18.

[Make me Smile]

[24 Feb 2005|04:21pm]
[ mood | loved ]

Isn't it absolutely the best feeling in the world when all you have to do is walk into a room and all the girls grab a hold of their man..

2 Made me laugh // [Make me Smile]

[22 Feb 2005|04:15pm]
[ mood | guilty ]

On Friday me and Angino went out to dinner and then back to his house. On Saturday we went to the beach and later to the movies. On Sunday I had my basketball banquet.. we all went out after that..Then on Monday I drove down to the Keys with Angino...

What if you spend all of your time with one person...but your heart is still with someone else?

[Make me Smile]

[18 Feb 2005|11:45am]
[ mood | awake ]

Would anyone want to bang you? by phobia
Favorite Food:
Wants to Bang you:
This many times:97
Quiz created with MemeGen!

[Make me Smile]

[15 Feb 2005|11:05pm]
[ mood | content ]

I think I had the best Valentines ever. $800 worth of jewelry from Angino, what more could a girl want? He's awesome.

1 Made me laugh // [Make me Smile]

[12 Feb 2005|11:52am]
[ mood | guilty ]

They never laugh, not like before
She takes the keys, he breaks the door
She cannot stay here anymore
He's not in love with her anymore

He takes a drink, she goes inside
He starts to scream, the vases fly
He wishes that she wouldn't cry
He's not in love with her anymore

He makes demands, she draws the line
He starts the fight, she starts the lie
But what is truth when something dies
He's not in love with her anymore

She's had enough, she says the end
But she'll come back, she knows it then
A chance to start it all again
Till death do us part

[Make me Smile]

Can You Feel The Hotness? [01 Feb 2005|10:32pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Some pictures of our last season game... we're off to districts!!

and what!!Collapse )

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[31 Jan 2005|04:25pm]
[ mood | Ready ]

But if you insist, the challenge delights me.
The more you resist, the more it excites me.
And no one I've kissed, ever fights me again.
If you're on my list, it's just a question of when.

Next year....he's mine.

[Make me Smile]

[30 Jan 2005|10:35pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I have school tomorrow.. another week of hell. I have my last basketball game for the season as well. Of course there's districts here after. Well heres some pics of my cool team...

ballinCollapse )

[Make me Smile]

[23 Jan 2005|07:46pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

I just got home from the mall. I bought like 8 shirts, a sweater and a really sexy sweat suit, it's so fucking cold. I just realized how much I adore my body. Everything I tried on looked great. I'm truly blessed.

2 Made me laugh // [Make me Smile]

[18 Jan 2005|08:01pm]
[ mood | full ]

Your Stripper Name is: Puppy

haha.. that's hot

Your Drag Queen Name is: Pussy Golitely

[Make me Smile]

Coach Carter [16 Jan 2005|06:14pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

So we lost our game on Friday. We went into overtime and everything. They made it in the last 3 seconds and we got the extra 4 minutes. So then we made a lay-up and we were up by two and within the last 2 seconds they just threw the ball up and made it in. The ref's counted it as a 3 pointer when it was CLEARLY a two pointer. One of the girl's dads got kicked out of the gym because he told the ref he was full of shit. It was great. The crowd was HUGE. We had the baseball team, the dance team, the cheerleaders, the wrestlers, our parents, the other teams fans, school security, as well as the principal, and AP :-0!! It's the greatest feeling in the world when you've got the fans screaming and everyone's all into it. It was unbelievable.

I saw Coach Carter last night. It was possibly the best movie I've seen in a looong time. It's mad inspirational too. I think I found my future husband. My god the guy in this movie was fucking hot!

god daYUM!Collapse )

[Make me Smile]

[14 Jan 2005|04:50pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Hmmm.... so this week went by rather quickly. I've done pretty good in my classes too :) ... I've decided that I'm not going to go to my modeling workshops. It's just not worth it. I'm a size 3 in jeans and what not and she said that since I have a 37 inch ass and I can't possibly lose any more weight (I have to be a '35') unless I go anorexic that I should consider being a plus size model. What the fuck? Okaayyy... I'm a size THREE now, in order to be a plus size model you have to be a size TEN, which under my standards is fat. I don't think so, she can kiss my 37 inch ass. I know what I am and I don't need to lose or gain a single inch. My body is hot. Any how, I must go get ready for my basketball game. Oh yes! I've got the greatest news in the world! We've been playing with an ineligible player for the whole season! Which means that all the games that we've won...we've lost! Fucking awesome. Goodbye.

[Make me Smile]

[11 Jan 2005|09:42pm]
[ mood | drained ]

So I have possibly the worst schedule I've had in all my high school years. I have Spanish II, AP Psychology, English III Honors, and Algebra II. It sucks ass.

We just lost our basketball game against Cypress Bay. They were so ugly. All of them. They were fat and sweaty and they smelled like a hairy ass. I hate when girls try to act like guys, and walk like them and shit. Grow a fucking dick you dikes. Ew.

Well that's all, I have to go read this boring ass book, The Scarlett Letter, and a chapter out of my Psych book.... *moan*

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